Curiosity

Chapter 15:

Bella and Emmett 'Talk'

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Well Alice and I were not really doing much. I couldn't sleep of course. I have been having thoughts of Emmett, confusion about what I did and what I heard afterward. We were engaged in a ridiculous game of Gin Rummy when Alice got a small vision.

When it was finished I asked if she was okay, her reply was going to the window and opening it.

"What are you doing Alice, I refuse to let Edward in here." I was about to get hysterical, but had to remember that Charlie was sleeping, I mean it was, turning to look at the clock, 4 am.

"Holy crap, it's like four o'clock. Who will be coming through that window Alice?" I demanded, but she wouldnt say. I know she knew.

She just looked at me smugly and shrugged her shoulders.

Now my curiousity was peeked. Wasn't that what got me to be sitting where I was? Haha. Figures.

About that time of course my thoughts went back to Emmett, so its no wonder I thought I had imagined him coming through my window like a graceful bird. Haha. I must be delusional. Emmett a graceful bird.

But no after blinking several times and rubbing my gritty eyes, he really was standing in the middle of my bedroom.

"Um, hi Em." I felt kinda shy. I have no clue why he's here, or what to expect.

"Um, hey Bells. You okay?" Emmett sounded kind of shy.

Are we really gonna act shy after what has happened between us? Of course I will. I'm Bella, not confident, sexy (and I do mean sexy) and stronge Em.

"Still really confused about well alot of things. But I'm better than Alice thought I would be." I gave him a small smile, just to make sure the statement was believable.

"Speaking of me, I'm gonna go. Really need to feed, but I will be back soon. You going to be here for a while Emmett?" She asked as she started toward the window.

"I'll be here until you get back, or until Bella kicks me out." And then he laughed. "Well she can try to kick me out, but I doubt she'd be able to."

Well he's feeling better too, obviously. He was cracking stupid jokes again. But sometimes I loved those stupid jokes. Wait Love. No. Did I? No. I couldn't. Ugh! This was all so confusing.

"Good, I'm not going far, so I should be back in a few hours. Maybe you can talk while I'm gone." And with that Alice glided out the window.

Emmett was still standing in the middle of the room. He was slowly looking around at everything. Then it occurred to me, this was the first time he had been in my room. And he was taking it over with his massive body. Oh that body. Stop it Bella. Now is not the time to let your hormones take over you brain.

"So Bella, nice diggs. First time I've ever been in here." Emmett was horrible at small talk. But he was trying to break the ice.

"Yeah, sure sure. I was just thinking that as well, you know about you never having been in here before."

"Yeah. So seriously, are you okay. I didn't hurt you did I? I wouldn't be able to forgive myself if I did." Emmett was worried 'he' had hurt me. Oh see I knew he was sweet.

"No, actually I feel perfect, well physically, and if you exclude the lack of sleep. I just can't seem to wrap my mind around everything. I know what we did - well- it probably shouldn't have happened-" He cut me off mid sentence.

"I know it probably shouldn't have but I just wanted to say. I'm not sorry it did. I'm glad it did. Bella what you gave to me, it was pure. No one has ever given me such a part of them." Emmett looked uneasy now.

"Oh Em, I wasn't going to say I regret it happening. Yes what we did brought alot of things to light. Obviously things that should have been a long time ago. But I do not resent that. I'm quite glad it happened. I'm not mad at Esme for telling us what she did. Although I have some questions about it." I was rambling.

"Wait Bella, Esme said she would call and tell you, but I will let you know everything that has happened after you came home." And then he did. He told me what he said to Edward and Rosalie. His drive. What Esme told him about the hunting trip. Why she told us what she did. He told me everything.

He was so open about it. It felt good not to be sheltered from the bad. By the time he was finished I was astounded. He had stood up for me. Left Rose. Was staying at a Lodge. Edward was gone. Why didn't that hurt?

After I guess must have been quite a few moments of me being silent. Emmett spoke up.

"Bells are you okay?" He said in a whisper.

I smiled at him. I genuine smile this time. "Yes, Em. I'm okay. Surprisingly to myself and probably everyone else. I feel okay. Still a little shocked I guess, about a lot of things. But I'm okay. I guess that gaping hole in the middle of my heart has healed itself over the last couple of months. And I think I was more in love with the idea of Edward. Instead of you know the actual person."

"He just treated me with such 'protection'. But what it really felt like was control. Bella don't do this and don't go here. You don't do that though. Do you Em? You wouldn't do that." His eyes met mine, and a thousand words and feelings flashed across his face.

"Emmett, would you please sit down. Your giving me a terrible cramp in my neck looking up at you." I tried to say it jokingly but came out kind of huskily.

"Yeah. Sure, you don't mind me sitting on your bed do you?" He asked permission first. That was very considerate of him.

"Not at all." And I scooted over so he could sit down.

"Um, can I ask you a serious question Bella? I mean you don't have to answer right away, but I was kinda wondering-" His voice trailed off.

"What is it Em? You can ask me anything. I cannot promise that I will answer the way anyone expects, but you can ask." I tried to have a neutral look on my face.

He sat up a little straighter. "Well I was wondering if you, well I mean, umm, would you give me a chance? To love you I mean?"

I'm guessing the look on my face was pure surprise because Emmett looked even more uncomfortable then before he had asked.

"Well I, you know, I had been wondering what would happen between us. I mean, I've always harbored secret feelings for you, but with you being with Rose, I just assumed it could never happen. I thought it was just a crush. You know, I thought I was just crushing on my best friends older brother. Like so many other girls my age."

"Aw Bells. You too?" Emmett grinned.

Then we both started laughing. It felt good to laugh. And to laugh with Emmett just made it feel even better.

"So what happens next?" Emmett asked.

I was having those hormonal thoughts of him again. He looked absolutely handsome sitting on my bed. He must have been reading my facial expressions because he let out a low growl. Which made me laugh again.

And then he pounced me.