Supernova

Jacob tried sitting up. It proved to be too painful for him to do.

"Relax Jacob." I looked down at him in the bed. I saw a tiny spot of bed that he wasn't occupying and decided to sit down next to him. As I pushed the blanket out of the way, it exposed his naked leg. I guess they didn't have time, or found it too painful to clothe him. I quickly allowed it to cover himself back up.

"So why are you here again?" Jacob looked anxious.

"Well other than to support an injured friend, I came here to tell you that I think you're right."

"I'm not sure I'm following you Bells."

I looked at the floor. "When Edward left, I was broken. You helped put me back together. I would still be that ghost of a person had it not been for you. With you, I feel different than with Edward. I love Edward, but I'm not sure where that love come from anymore. After that kiss I started realizing that I loved you too. So the question became, which love do I let control me? Edward's love feels like an obligation I think. I love him so much that I'd give my life up for him, and with that, everything else that means anything to me, including you. I don't feel that love should have to be like that. With you I don't have to give anything up. I don't feel hurt from you. You have always supported me, no matter how crazy or outrageous the idea might have been. You're always right there next to me. Jacob, I think our love is more natural, and less forced. I want to grow that love with you."

I eyed my hand. There was a long silence. I took my hand and placed it on his bare chest and moved it up to his plastered shoulder. Once I reached his cast, I moved it to his jaw line, trying so hard not to hurt him. That's when his eyes captured mine. He looked stunned and speechless. I moved so that my hand was resting on the bed. I leaned into it so that I was hovering over him. I moved my lips in towards his.

I kissed him. I kissed Jacob. I think it was at the same time that I started to cry. Renegade tears escaped my eyes. Jacob must have noticed because he pressed his lips harder against mine. Our lips parted and when his tongue met mine, it was like I could taste his essence. This was Jacob Black in the fullest. The image of him naked under the sheet is what sent me out of control. I had to stop. I just had to. If I continued, I wasn't sure I'd be able to stop. I didn't want to stop, but I reminded myself that Jacob probably had a dozen broken bones, and I wasn't making it any easier on him. I gave him one last kiss and pulled away, gasping for air.

We stared into each other's eyes for what seemed like eternity. Finally he spoke. "Wow. The doctor must have given me some really good meds."

"Why do you say that?" I was confused.

"Because I have only dreamed about this for forever, but I've never had a dream like this. It seems so real."

"Jacob, it has to be real. If it was a dream, you wouldn't be injured would you?"

"Oh."

More silence.

"I just don't know what to do about Edward. This is going to kill him. He doesn't deserve this, but I can't deny it anymore. I don't want to give up everyone I love, you most of all. When he left me, you made me whole again, and not being with you brings me back to a very scary place, I can't hide it anymore."

"I could handle it for you," he said with a very evil grin on his face.

"Jake, you know I couldn't do that. Besides just because I've decided I need you, doesn't mean that I still don't love him and I need to do this the right way. I think I need to go and talk to him. So you let those meds kick in and I'll talke care of the rest. I love you Jacob Black."

I stood up, leaned in and gave him one last kiss, and headed out the door, on to face the hardest confrontation of my life.

***Sorry if this was a bit on the short side. The next one will be this way too, but after that It will get better, I promise***