The Brother I Never Knew

The Brother I Never knew
Chapter 28


Leah P.O.V

We arrived at the party. And we considered leaving almost as soon as we got there.

Seth's friends or contacts or what ever the hell he had neglected to mention that this party was going to have not only music and booze, but drugs and according to my enhanced sense of smell and hearing sex.

I knew that whoever was copulating was doing so out in the woods where no one could see them or hear them thanks to the blaring music. But we wolves have excellent hearing even with this crappy rave music blaring to high heaven we could still hear them.

Seth caused uproar with the females in attendance. Five minutes here and girls were pressing themselves against him and offering to do certain things to and with him I will not repeat.

I myself had my ass grabbed three times only to punch the offenders in the face and knock them on there asses.

What I found more shocking was there were drugs in Forks. Forks had always been able to brag about being a drug free town. I mean I knew it wasn't purely drug free but this was a whole new level. Even more shocking was who were here and doing the drugs. I recognized quite a few people, some had visited first beach for camping, others I knew from around town, Forks had a small population, everyone in La Push and Forks knew each other.

I made sure I was remembering everyone who I saw. Charlie had dinner at our house not too long ago and mentioned there had been some concern about drugs recently. Next time I saw him I would tell him who I had seen. I knew some of the names I would give him would hurt him personally. Charlie was good friends with many of their parents; I don't envy him being the one who has to tell parents their kids are drug users.

Personally I could care less if the punks were doing drugs, but they came to La Push for camping and hiking, last thing I wanted was for them to bring there drugs with them into my home.

"Sorry Leah, I didn't know it would be like this," Seth said.

"It's not your fault, you didn't know." I said.

"I can't believe it, we know some of these people." He said sadly.

Poor Seth. I envied his ability to see the good in other people. But times like this I was glad to be the more practical one. When you place so much faith in a person and they let you down it can hurt bad. Seeing all the people he thought he knew better then this indulging in such hedonistic behavior hurt him.

"Should we get going?" He asked.

"Not yet, I want to see who all is here, then next time we see him we can tell Charlie, help him know where to look for drugs and how to keep them out of Forks."

"Yeah, you think we should tell Sam? What if they bring drugs into La Push?" Seth asked.

"It's a human problem so we'll tell Charlie first. Let humans take care of it, if any wolves or any of our people do it then it's our business. Besides Sam and the others took care of the drug pushers years ago, mo sense in getting Sam all riled up and having him scare the tourists away because he wanted to check and make sure they were clean." I said.

We stayed a little longer checking faces, remembering names. We decided to leave but I caught a scent that made my bones freeze solid. This scent was familiar. Disturbingly familiar.

"Leah is that who I think it is?" Seth asked scenting the air.

"Yes, stay here I'll handle it." I said.

He grabbed my arm. "Leah."

"I'll handle it," I said shaking off his hand, "Get the car ready, I'll be there soon."

Seth didn't look happy but he knew better to argue. He headed for the car while I used my nose to follow the scent. It took me through the dancers, and past some kids smoking something stronger then tobacco. I followed the scent that got stronger as I headed for the woods. The same woods where I knew a different kind of party was being held.
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Jamie P.O.V

We said nothing as we redressed.

I had enjoyed the sex. It was better then I had dared hope. Then again I believe Terran's large experience in that was what helped make it so enjoyable. I was glad I had taken Tom's advice. Although I feared what was about to happen next was going to be less enjoyable.

"Who's Leah?" Terran asked angrily.

I know when I found my release I had whispered her name. I had thought Terran hadn't heard me, guess I was wrong.

"Well who is she?"

"Someone who isn't you." I said buttoning my shirt.

"A girlfriend?" She asked coldly.

"Not that it's any of your business but no. She is...an acquaintance." I said. I finished putting my paints on. "Well thanks for the sex, see you later."

I went to walk back to the party but Terran stopped me. She placed her hand on my chest. Her pupils had dilated and I could feel her body temperature had increased. The ecstasy was starting to kick in for her. "Wait, lets play some more, the pills are kicking in, they can really do wonders for sex a person's sex drive." She smiled trailing her hands lower.

I was afraid she would be clingy after words. "No there won't be any more playing, not between us." I said.

"Why not?" She asked angrily.

"I needed to lose my virginity and you were more then willing to help with that." I said grabbing her hands and pushing them away.

"Virgin? There is no way in hell you were a virgin! I have had virgins before and none of them were that good. I mean you're what twenty-three? Twenty-six?" She asked.

"Actually I'm seventeen," I said.

"Jesus I heard they grew big on the reservation." She said her eyes widening in disbelief.

"Yes now if you will excuse me."

"Wait, lets do it again, that was the best twelve minutes of my life, and I'm sure I can teach you a lot more." She said huskily.

"Sorry but I'm not looking for a relationship right now, or ever for that matter."

"But we just made love." She pouted.

I laughed. "No we had sex, love was nowhere in the equation, like I said, I wanted sex, and you were willing and you gave it to me. I seriously doubt you you have fallen in love with me, we had great sex nothing more. There are plenty of men back at the party who will be more then willing to give you what you want." I dropped her hands and backed up. "I'm sorry if I gave you the wrong impression, but you were just a quick fuck I needed."

I tried to be honest and truthful, women liked those traits. Terran however got red in the face and tears ran down her face. "You are an asshole!" She shouted and stormed off. I noticed however she was limping and I grinned in satisfaction.

When she was out of my sight I reached into my pocket and pulled out the bag of ecstasy Terran had nicked from the dealer. She had served her purpose well. She got me extra pills and she was a good teacher at the sex thing. I wasn't worried about Terran; her kind didn't take to long to find a rebound.

I popped four more pills, hoping that I could get the high I was looking for.

What should I do next? I could go back to the party, but people were too drunk or high too have a conversation with. And I was in no mood to dance. Maybe I should have taken Terran up on her offer. I was really getting into having sex. But I remembered how attached she got. If I had another romp with her she might have gotten more attached.

I could still go back up to the party and find someone else to continue my little experiment with, there were plenty of willing women back there.

Then the wind blew in my direction. I smelled a familiar scent. Leah.
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Leah P.O.V

I followed Jamie's scent into the woods. I could smell and hear other couples out in the distance.

I knew what I might find, but I needed to know if Jamie was taking drugs. Like I told Seth I don't want that shit in my home. If Jamie was on drugs I would get Sam involved.

I heard raised voices. An angry female and a cold male. I heard the female call the male an asshole and I heard her walking in my direction. I saw her walking past some trees, she was limping. Her dress showed off a lot of chest and leg. She limped by me with out noticing me.

I waited until she was out of sight hidden by the trees when I continued the search for Jamie. I had smelled him all over the girl, along with the smell of sweat and sex.

The wind blew and I coursed for not staying down wind. Now he would catch my scent. I figured to hell with secrecy.

"Jamie," I called. "I know your there, I can smell you."

He stepped out from behind a tree and came walking over to me. The scent of sex was strong around him. "Hello Leah," He said. His face was perfectly normal. It betrayed no emotion but at the same time wasn't cold.

"I believe you are supposed to be grounded." I said.

"Well I decided to do some rebelling." He smiled.

"Among other things," I said remembering the girl. I don't know why but I didn't like the fact he had been fornicating. Especially with some floozy like that.

"I am seventeen Leah; I don't need your approval. My sex life is my own business."

"What about your drug life?" I asked. He smelled funny. And even though we were in the dark (I could see in the dark) I could see his pupils were just slightly dilated.

"What are you talking about?" he asked.

"Come here." I said.

He smiled and he steeped forward, I thought he would stop but he was so close now I could see the whites of his eyes. He was definitely invading my personal space.

I backed up and he chuckled. I got a big enough whiff to know he was definitely high on something. I went up to him and began to pat him down.

"Hey!" He said as I reached into his pocket and pulled out the bag I found.

He tried to grab for the bag but I was too quick for him. "What the hell are these?" I asked dangling the pills.

"Vitamins." He said.

"Well then I guess you won't mind when I do this." I dropped the bag and crushed them with my foot.

"Hey, those were mine!" He said outraged.

"What the hell are you thinking?" I asked him angrily

"It's just ecstasy." He said.

I rolled my eyes. "Oh wow, it's just ecstasy, oh silly me. You know I thought you were different." I turned to face him my hands on my hips. "I thought you were smarter then most kids your age. Instead I find you taking drugs, and having sex out in the woods like your some kind of animal!"

"Well technically I am." He said reasonably.

"Just because you can turn into an animal doesn't mean you have to act like one."

"What? So I take some pills and have some sex in the woods makes me less then human." He smiled with a raised eyebrow.

"You're already in hot water with Sam, what do you think he will do when he finds out?" I asked.

"I imagine he'll yell, shout, and lecture. The same old." He said moving his hands in a circular motion.

"Why do you even take these things anyway?" I asked him.

"I've been taking them for years Leah, I know my limits. Besides my new metabolism keeps them from affecting me like normal. I've taken seven and I only have a little buzz." He said waving his hand in front of his face then let out a disappointed sigh.

"But why? Why did you start in the first place?" I asked.

He didn't look at me. He just stood there staring at his hand. Finally he turned to look at me and I was chilled. His eyes were so empty, no emotion. He really was like a wolf. You looked into his eyes and there was nothing human in him.

"Because I feel nothing, no hate, no love, no delight, no despair, no pain. For as long as I could remember...I think once I felt something. But my mothers neglect and abuse helped my condition grow. If I had a more happy family could I have been different? Was I a natural born sociopath or was my sad life what turned me into one?"

"Nurture vs. Nature." I said.

"One of the oldest questions," He smiled. "I took the pills because the chemicals help give me the illusion that I could still feel. It's the only way I feel normal. The only way I feel...human. Without them all I have is the void that is my heart, the cold logic of my mind. I'm a monster Leah; I have no doubt of that. I have done things that should fill me with regret but I feel none. Nothing hurts me, nothing makes me cry. I am empty. And those pills make me feel something."

What was I supposed to say to that? Sorry your life sucked? That didn't seem to cut it. I felt sorry for him, but I couldn't afford to be sorry. I had to be firm and resolute.

"I'm sorry life has kicked you down. I'm sorry your mom was so horrible to you, and I'm sorry you got dragged into this shit. But the pills won't help you, nether will cheap sex. You need professional help, and I can get it for you."

"Oh yeah that would be a nice conversation, 'Excuse me doc I'm a sociopath werewolf with major issues and an addiction to pills, what do you recommend'".

"I want you to see Carlisle." I said.

He said nothing. I think he was stunned, but his face was still that mask of nonchalance. I never took much time to look at his face, but with the weird growth spurt we get I saw some similarities to Sam. The cheeks, the nose, the eyes.

"What makes you think I will go to him for help?" He asked.

"Because I'm giving you an ultimatum. If you go to Carlisle for professional help and I won't tell Sam I saw you here tonight, or I tell Sam and I make sure you won't be able to so much as pick your nose without someone knowing it."

He took a step forward; our faces were so close again. "I don't like threats Leah," He said and I fought not to shiver. I knew from that look on his face that he could hurt me, hurt me and not bat an eyelash, or feel remorse."

"Look at it however you want, but I won't let you destroy yourself, and I won't let drugs into La Push. Tomorrow I will tell Charlie what I have seen. So either you get help or I tell Charlie and Sam what I saw, including you. Your choice, I expect an answer tomorrow."

I turned and began the walk back to the car. My instincts were screaming at me to keep my eyes on him, to not turn my back on him.

"Leah." he called.

"Yes?" I said turning around.

"I agree, in fact I can help get you some names. A friend of mine has deep connections, I can get him to talk and I can get you the names." He said.

"And how do you plan on making him talk?" I asked raising an eyebrow.

"I'm not going to torture him. He has lose lips when he gets drunk, and he is easily manipulated. I'll see Carlisle and 'Get help' and I will help you by giving you the names of all the drug pushers my friend knows."

"I appreciate that. I suggest you get home, my threat would be useless if you get caught." And with that I left him alone in the woods.

I wonder why he is so willing to help? Was it my desire to help him? Or was it him trying to get back in my good graces. If it was the latter then it was pointless, after what I learned tonight it would be a while before I would regain my respect for him.

But somehow I don't think that was it. Jamie has a hundred reasons for what he does, and ninety-nine of those reasons were self beneficial for him.
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Jamie P.O.V

I watched as Leah walked away.

I looked at the crushed pills and sighed. I had been caught. My days of blissful drug induced oblivion were over. But I still had the rest of the night to enjoy my pleasures.

I smiled and headed off to the party. Once I was sure Leah was gone I would find more pills and more women to help satisfy my new need for flesh. My last night as a sociopath hedonistic werewolf. Tonight would be one hell of a party.

Then once I had my fill of chemicals and meaningless sex I would hunt Tom down and make him talk. When I told Leah I wouldn't torture him I meant it. He really did have a big mouth when he was drunk, and I'm sure by now he would be wasted. I'm sure I might have to get a little rough, but I got to do something to get back in Leah's good graces.

I was thankful for her. All my life people just assumed I was a delinquent and would as soon see me in a jail cell or a white padded room. Leah was the only one who wanted to help me not because it was her duty like Sam or it was her job like all those therapists and doctors who thought medicine and pills would cure me. I felt...grateful.

I got back to the party; it was still in full swing. People danced, drank, smoked and let loose with reckless abandonment. I had always been attracted to things like this. The shedding of morality and morals, the revealing of our true nature.

I saw Tom still dancing with his girlfriend, fondling her breasts. I saw a girl wearing a skirt and a white blouse drinking a bear. I smiled to myself. She spotted me eyeballing her, smiled and waved me over. Her eyes filled with drunken lust. I did a quick sweep and saw other eyes staring at me wantonly. First the skirt girl then a few others, pop a few pills, collect Tom get the info. Go home and go home.

I would enjoy myself tonight. Tonight one part of my life ends and a new one begins.





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