Because You Live

Chapter 3


"Bella, are you still a virgin?" Carlslie asked, flipping over so he was hovering over me.

My cheeks flamed as I nodded.

"I figured as much. Edward was such a worry wart, worrying about hurting you. I tried to tell him that you would be fine. Emmett, Jasper and I all had sex with humans, and they all survived. If Jasper could do it, then Edward would have had no trouble at all. The key is to handle with care. Of course none of us have ever been with virgins, maybe that's what Edward was worrying about, the blood, but it's very minimal and shouldn't be a problem."


After our talk I felt a little bit better, but I couldn't get Alice's vision out of my mind. If she still saw me as a vampire, then that meant someone was going to change me, but who could it be? Carlslie was the only one with enough restraint to do it without killing me, unless there was another vampire in the world with his restraint towards humans.

When I told Charlie about going out to dinner with Carlslie, his jaw dropped.

"He's a little old for you, isn't he?"

"Dad! We're just friends. He's hurting too, you know, he lost his wife. Besides, I'm 18, I'm an adult, and you said so yourself I was a lot more mature than most 18 year olds that you know."

"Right, right. Well, have fun."


"Thank you for tonight, Carlslie," I said, as we headed back towards Forks. My house was dark when we got there, and the cruiser was gone. Carlslie followed me into the house. I knew he was still worried about me, even though Victoria was gone and would never be coming back for me. I flipped on the kitchen light and found a note on the fridge. Bella....staying with Billy tonight, going fishing early tomorrow so figured I'd stay on La Push, money in jar for pizza if you get hungry. Love, Charlie

"Charlie's staying at La Push tonight," I said, giving Carlslie a look.

I heated up a couple of Hot Pockets and then decided to take a shower. I knew Carlslie was in my room, waiting patiently. I shouldn't be so nervous, Carlslie had been staying over for awhile now. But tonight was different, Charlie wasn't home and we were truly alone.

I secretly wondered if Carlslie was as uptight and virtuous as Edward had been. Only one way to find out. I fluffed out my hair and ran a comb through it, wrapping a towel around my body. Could I really pull this off? I knew once we did this we couldn't go back to being friends. I couldn't believe I was about to seduce a vampire. The old Bella would have run the other way, but losing Edward had changed me.

I had planned on making a dramatic entrance back into my bedroom, but in true Bella fashion I tripped and fell forward, and I felt two cold arms grab me and keep me from kissing the carpet.

"Ahh, Bella," Carlslie said chuckling softly. He looked down at the same time I did, and I saw his eyes turn black.

I realized the towel had opened, revealing everything I had to him. I frantically tried to cover myself, but he stopped me.

"You're so beautiful, Isabella, how on earth did Edward keep his hands off you?" He scooped me up, towel and all and gently carried me over to the bed, placing me carefully on the soft bed. He opened the towel and stared down at me.

"So exquisite," he murmured, gently tracing the scar on my forearm from my birthday party last year. I tugged at his shirt, and he removed it promptly and then worked on his jeans. I lightly stroked his broad shoulders and ran my hand down the smooth planes of his chest and stomach, letting my nails lightly graze the tough skin. He growled slightly and then worked on his boxers. I gasped when I saw how big he was.

"Bella," he groaned, running his fingers along my slit, feeling how wet I was already.

"Carlslie, please," I moaned.

"Please what?"

"Make love to me, please."

He didn't waste any time, he slowly and carefully entered me inch by inch until I could feel him at my barrier, and I took a deep breath. He slowly pulled out and then thrust forward quickly, breaking through my barrier and I felt the sharp stab of pain and screamed out loud. He covered my mouth with his, and my whimpers turned into moans as we found a rhythm we both liked. He licked the outside of my lower lip, begging for entrance. I parted my lips and he explored the inside of my mouth, keeping his venom soaked teeth away from me.

I could feel it in the pit of my stomach, that pressure building, and I started to moan again, and Carlslie picked up the pace a little bit, reaching down to pinch my clit with his fingers, which sent me over the edge. I could feel the pulsing as he spilled into me, and my body was clenching around him, and I clung to him desperately, not wanting to let him go. He started to pull away, but I clung to him.
"Please don't leave me," I whimpered, burying my face in his neck. We lay side by side and he kissed me on the forehead as I let sleep overtake me.