Supernova

Special note to Gaps of Misery: Thank you for the reviews. I know... I didn't know how to get Edward out of the picture. She had to break his heart for the story line to go where it is going. I don't know when I turned into a Jacob fan, but yeah..... Just remember, he did it to her first. Thank you again, you are wonderful.

The next chapter should be up within the next day or two. I had more that I was going to post with this one, but then decided that this was where I needed to end that one. So here goes.


**************************************************

I tried to swallow, but the second I set eye on the black shiny car in the driveway, my throat became dry and couldn't. I was speechless. I would have figured that after hearing the rumbling of my truck, any Cullen would have the decency to become scarce. I was wrong. Still staring at Carlisle's car, I manged to get out of my truck and up on the porch. There I overheard a conversation.

"I had no idea that he could heal at this fast a rate. If he continues at this pace, he should be able to get out of bed this evening, but not for too long. Tomorrow will be a better day for walking around. I wouldn't have him shift form for at least another 2 weeks...." I heard a grunt from, I'm assuming, Jacob's room. "At any rate, this has to be the quickest recovery from an injury this substantial, ever."

"Thank you again." Billy's voice sounded scraggly and rugged compared to that of Carlisle.

The next voice caused me to freeze. "Yes, good luck with that." His usual perfect voice sounded broken somehow.

The next thing I knew the door was opening and Edward stepped out. He looked at me once, and even though his eyes only locked on mine for the briefest second, I could see the pain flooding through them. In the next second, he was gone and already sitting in the Carlisle's car. Next to emerge was Carlisle himself. He too looked at me, and he too had a similar look of pain in his eyes, though I'm certain nothing could reach the depths of Edward's.He paused.

"Bella, " He paused. He seemed uncertain or even thoughtful about the next words that emerged from his mouth. "I'm sorry that things had to end between you and Edward. He is like a shell now. I can understand why you did it. My son did not handle the situation properly when he left you. He didn't understand the type of damage it would do to you. None of us did. We all thought we were doing what would be best for you. When we came back it was foolish to think that you would just let everything be forgotten. As I have already accepted my place back at the hospital, I will not be leaving. I'm not sure that anyone other than Edward really wants to leave. He needs some time to figure everything out I guess."

I looked up at him. I didn't know how to feel. How do you apologize to someone's father for breaking their son's heart? Still I tried, "I'm so sorry. You know I've come to see the rest of you as family. I could never deny that. I still love Edward deeply, it's just that I can't seem to feel 'whole' anymore. I know it's very cliche' but I would like to try to be friends with him, after some time. He deserves that much. I didn't want to hurt him, but there was no way to fix myself without breaking him." On this last part my voice started to crack and the tears started to form. One betrayed me and flowed freely down the side of my face.

Carlisle came over and wrapped his cold arms around me. This made me feel even worse, More tears escaped. I don't know how, but I was able to control my voice. He didn't notice that I was crying full force now. He ended the hug, patted me on the back, and walked to the car. About 10 seconds later they were gone. That's when the sobs escaped. I crumpled down onto the porch, and everything hit full force again.

It shouldn't hurt this much to try to fix the situation. I shouldn't be so painful to get what I wanted. But it was. It was and more.

There was noise coming from the house but i couldn't distinguish anything in particular. I did, however, seem to notice when the front door opened. At first I thought it was Billy wheeling himself out onto the porch, so I tried to calm down. When Jacob sat down next to me, I was completely shocked.

" You should be in bed," I said as steadily as my voice would allow.

"I couldn't just lay there and do nothing while you were out here like this." He said this as he took a strand of my hair and fixed it behind my ear.

"Oh Jacob." I started sobbing again, this time burying my head into his shoulder. He wrapped his big, hairy arms around me and I started to calm down.

He kissed the top of my head. "You will never hurt like this again, I promise."

I wanted to tell him that he couldn't be sure of this. He could never know for certain what the future held. Then there was always the possibility of him imprinting on someone else. He seemed to somehow sense this, and all these thoughts were rushed out of my head when his hand reached my chin and lifted it up to look in his eyes. "As long as I am breathing. As long as my heart still beats in my chest. I will do everything possible to make sure you never cry another tear because of me." The next thing I knew, his lips were crashing against mine. I could feel the need, the urgency behind the kiss. In that moment, everything was lost. Every thought, everything I could feel screamed his name. His tounge caused my lips to part, not that he needed much effort. At that moment, everything else disappeared. All the pain, all the doubt. Nothing else mattered. I had my Jacob. He was mine.

**********************************************************************

After Billy rolled himself out, breaking us up, he lectured Jacob about not resting. And with some persuasion I managed to get him back in bed. I stayed for several hours talking to him while he was lying down in bed before I decided to allow him some rest. He asked when I'd be back and I told him some time in the evening, that I had to work at Newton's all morning. He seemed disappointed, so I leaned over and gave him another kiss. When I pulled away I bit onto his lower lip lightly and told him to think about that until I got back. The last I saw of him, there was a huge grin covering his face and he closed his eyes.

When I finally got home, Charlie almost ran into my truck rushing out to make sure everything was okay. I opened my door to see what the emergency was. "Bella, is everything okay? I knew you were going down to see Jacob, but I didn't know you would be gone for this long." Oops, guess I should have called.

"Yes dad, everything is fine. I just sort of lost track of time is all. Jacob's doing very well, we spent most of the day just talking. I'm sorry if I worried you."

"It's okay," He sort of stuttered along, "It's just after yesterday, I expected...." His voice trailed off.

"I know dad. Last night was horrible. I don't even want to think about it." I shuddered.

"It's okay Bella, I just wanted to be here for you if you needed me."

"Thanks dad." We made it into the house, and I headed upstairs.

I went into my room to grab my pajamas off the bed, But almost had a heart attack getting them.



***********************


I can understand not reviewing... I mean for some people that takes more effort and motivation than people have. However, it only takes 2 seconds to rate what you see and have only three ratings for over 200 hits......