Supernova

"Looking for these?" Her musical voice chimmed,

"Oh my god. Alice!" I ran over to her and gave her the biggest hug I could manage.

"Calm down, Bella. It's okay. But if someone isn't going to be here every night you should probably start locking your windows."

She was right. I, however, didn't want to admit this, so instead I decided to ignore the remark. "Alice, what are you doing here?"

"I needed to see you. You know that Edward wasn't the only one in the family that loved you. You've sort of grown on all of us. Even Rosalie is amazingly tolerant of you." At this remark, I had to let out a little laugh. "We are a bit sad that you won't be joining our family, but while we still stay in the area, we don't want you to feel that you had to give that up. You will always be family to us Bella."

"Thank you" I paused for a moment, hesitating, not sure exactlyhow to force the words out of my mouth, "How is he?"

"He's doing well considering," She broke my gaze for the first time since I ended the hug. " He's hurt, obviously, but at the same time, he never wanted to make you one of us, to take away the many options a human life could offer. For all of us, we are happy to be what we are, but you had a normal life, a normal existance ahead of you. I wish I could tell you what you're future held, but the second you chose the mutt over Edward, you're future blurred right out of sight. I guess that's the way your life should be anyways."

"I know I said it already, but thank you so much Alice. You have no idea how much this guilt has been eating away at me. That I might have hurt him beyond repair."

"It will take some time, A LOT of time, but eventually he will be okay. Secretly he always wanted this." I gave her a sckeptical look." No, really Bella. He never wanted to turn you. This option allows for you to live a normal, human life. He always wanted that for you. He just hopes that Jacob would be enough to keep you safe."

"Thank you, you don't know how much hearing you say those words makes everything easier. Not that I deserve easier."

"I need to go now Bella. Jasper is waiting, we need to go on a little hunting trip. Seriously, though, lock your windows Bella." In the next second she was gone, not even creating a breeze against the curtains that lined the window. I went over and shut it, then latched the lock in place. I would have to make a bigger effort to stay safe.

I grabbed the pajamas off my bed where Alice had layed them back down, and went into the bathroom to take a shower. I let the hot water run until the bathroom mirror fogged over and got in. The hot water scorched me at first, but it felt good to allow the flowing water to wash away everything that was wrong in my life. That and it kind of reminded me of the heat coming off of Jacob. I contemplated this for a while until I noticed the water slowly turning cooler. It was a good thing Charlie usually took his showers in the morning because there definitely wasn't any hot water left for him.

When I layed down for the night, it was as if I could still feel the heat from the shower all over my body. I feel it was because of this that I dreamed very peacefully, having dreams about a certain wolf.

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When I went in to work in the morning, I was the opening person, so noone else was there. Around noon, Mrs. Newton showed up, and around two Mike showed up as well. It was almost five, and the minutes couldn't pass fast enough to get me to that reservation. I just had to see him. I must have been day dreaming, because I jumped when Mike called my name.

"Daydreaming Bella?" he asked

"Kind of. I have a friend who was injured recently and he isn't listening too well to the doctor's orders. I just want to get back to him to make sure he's okay."

"Bella, i've known you now for two years. That tone of voice tells me that it's more than a friend that you're running after, but if it were Cullen, you would have just said so. What did I miss Bella?"

I sighed. I didn't even know how to begin with Mike. "Well it's Jacob Black." I was hoping he'd realise what a great friend Jacob's always been to me and leave it at that. I'd never be so lucky.

"Jacob Black?" He thought about this for a minute. "Oh, he's that big guy from the reservation right? I didn't know that you were still hanging around him Bella. I thought since Edward came back to Forks that you would have forgotten all about Jacob. Matter of fact, it's seemed that since Edward came back you've forgotten about everyone. Even before that. So what's this of you finally showing some interest in someone who's not Edward?"

He had a very sceptical look on his face. Even for Mike, this was pushing the line. Mike who pushed and pushed and pushed no matter what was at stake. Mike who gotten into the middle of eveything that wasn't his business. Even this was too far for him. I clentched my hands into fists. "What right do you have saying that Mike?"

"What right do I have? I have been there with you when noone wanted to be your friend. When stuff was weird with you it was almost like I was you own personal cheerleader.... and I was.... I was hoping that once you had 'time' to be with someone other than Cullen that you'd chose to be with me...." His eyes darted all around while saying this never exactly meeting mine.

"Did you not hear me Mike? I said that Jacob's injured."

"Oh." A long silence filled the air. "I guess that was a bit selfish of me." Another long pause. "Well what are you still doing here? It's dead in here Bella. Why don't you just leave a bit early. I'll be fine."

"Thank you." I didn' think twice. I walked from behind the counter, taking off my work vest as I headed out. Just for effect I took it and flug it towards Mike. "Have fun."

I climbed into the cab of my truck. This damn 'beast' was slow. As the truck crept along, I didn't know that I was quite prepared to face Jacob. That is why when I got to La Push I pulled my truck over by the cliff near the beach. It was here that I decided to comtemplate everything. Staring out over the cliff everything seemed to make sense, it was oddly appropriate that I end up here. I mean this is where all the complications started. If I hadn't jumped off the cliff, none of this would have happened and I would have wound up with Jacob, without any interruptions. That would have been easier. This decision felt forced, like I had to decide between the two of them. That was the truth. I did decide, but I still love the both of them. I miss Edward so badly it hurts. It shouldn't have ended like this. It should have ended when he left me. When he left me. Thats when I started falling in love with Jacob. Knowing that I loved Jacob was enough. It made the decision that much easier. With Jacob, I had someone who loved me and who was more of, I guess, a natural choice. Natural- now that's a funny word. I climbed out of my truck and slowly walked over to the spot where I had jumped from that fatefull day. Mike would have probably been the best choice out of everyone. He wasn't something that went bump in the night- I hoped. Suddenly, I burst out in laughter. I couldn't believe I seriously had thought that, I must have lost the last bit of sanity I had. Then abruptly my laughter turned into tears. Everything I had lived for and loved in the past years was gone. This was all I could dwell on.

I needed to pull myself together. I needed to be rational about everything. I had Jacob. I had everything in that one thing. Jacob. My Jacob. And that's when I screamed. I screamed because I felt someone's hand on my shoulder.

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