Curiosity

Chapter 5:

What to do


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"Oh my God! What the fuck are we gonna do? Edward's gonna kill you or try to at least and Rosalie will have me ripped to shreads before I can get away." I was freaking. I really wanted to know what we were going to do. In the words of Alice 'what were we thinking'. But thats just it, I wasn't.

"Ok Bells, here is what we do. You go back you Charlie's. Stay there and don't leave, and don't let anyone in." Emmett says.

"No you know what, I have a better idea. I'll go to LaPush. Rosalie can't come there, and I'll be safe. Seth won't let anything happen to me." I grab my stuff and hurry out toward where my truck is parked. Alice is following me asking me a rash of questions, what was I doing, did I not think about anything before I did it. She was really going overboard. Rosalie will be ready to smash me to bits and she's worried about whether or not I was thinking.

"Look Alice, I know what I did was stupid, and I didn't go about it the right way. But you lecturing me about it now isn't going to change what has happened. Maybe if your brother could've showed me an ounce of the attention Emmett just did, I wouldn't have went looking elsewhere! Did you know that Edward has never done much more than kiss me. He wants me to wait til after I'm changed, but I just didn't want to give up that human experience. I won't know what its like when I'm a new vamp, and he won't tell me much." With that I turned on my heel, and walked to the truck. I was fuming now. I climbed in, slammed the door, then said a silent i'm sorry to my truck for man-handling it. Turning the key, it roared to life, startling me just a bit. I put it in drive and sped as fast as it would go. On my way to LaPush.

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So I arrive in LaPush, and pull up in front of Seth's house. I knock on the door, and no one answers, all of the Clearwaters are probably at Billy's watching the game. So I decided to go to the beach to think about how I was going to explain my latest fuck up to Edward and how in the hell I was going to keep Rosalie from killing me.

After running about fifty scenarios of how things will go with Edward and Rosalie through my mind, Seth and Leah come walking up the beach, Seth with that goofy grin of his and Leah looking like she would like to kill me.

"Hey Bella, what's up?" Seth asked. He really was a sweet heart.

"What you aren't with the blood-suckers today?" Leah says rudely.

"Well I was but I did something and really screwed up. And now I don't know how to fix it, or what I'm going to do. And Edward is going to hate me, and Emmett will be lucky if Edward doesn't kill him, and I'll be lucky if Rosalie doesn't rip my head off." It all came out in a rush, there I was again not thinking before I spoke.

Leah starts laughing hysterically, "You mean you screwed up and now you have the Cullens pissed off enough that your afraid Barbie -vamp is going to kill you! Dang Bella, what did you do sleep with her meat-head?"

I groaned loudly and she stopped laughing. "Bella, you didn't!" Seth exclaimed.

"Oh but I did. You see Edward didn't want to - well he wouldn't- well and I mean." I couldn't finish the sentence, I didn't want to talk about this with them. Where was my Jake when you needed him. Oh yeah off running around in wolf form because I had broken his heart one to many times. "Well here's what it is, Edward wouldn't sleep with me before I - you know- made the change and I wanted to experience that while I was human, and he refused, he kept saying he was afraid to hurt me, and well Emmett was there and I was feeling lonely and one thing led to another and dammit I really know how to screw things up!"

There I'd said what I'd done. It was awful, I felt awful, and now Leah was back to laughing at me again.

"Leah do you think it would be to much to ask for you not to laugh at me right now?" It was really beginning to piss me off.

"Well no. I find it quite funny actually. You see, none of this would have happened if you had stayed away from all of them, but NO! You had to go and think you fell in love with a blood sucker and now you done went and mucked things up good. And I can pretty much guarantee that if Jacob were still here instead of off running around somewhere in Canada that you wouldn't have turned to the meat-head for comfort. It could have been Jacob instead. Not that I would have liked that much better but atleast then you wouldn't have that Barbie-vamp after you! I cannot believe you Bella!" Leah was screaming at me now. "I can't deal with you vampy crap, I have to go. Seth are you coming?"

She looked to see if he would be following and he just stood there looking shocked. "Umm, you go. I'll catch up soon."

She glared at me, nothing new but it just felt worse than normal. "Fine but it's going to be hard not to think about this, and when I do the whole pack is going to hear it." Leah just laughed and walked away.

"Oh shit, this means Jacob will be able to know whats happened." Seth said alarmingly.

"So, he's thousands of miles away. It's not like he could fix it for me anyway, or want to for that matter. Leah's right. I really mucked things up."

"You'll figure it out, Bell's. You smart. Clumsy and now spontaneous. But smart. Just take your time to think things through. I can come be your guard dog if you want."

"Thanks Seth, that's really thoughtful of you, but you can't save me from what's bound to happen. I just need to go home and face the music." I got up and started walking back toward their house to get my truck.

"Well if you need me, just call. I'll get there as fast as I can." Seth said when we had reached my truck.

"Thanks, I appreciate that, but I don't think anything can help me now." I gave him a quick hug and climbed in my truck, sitting there behind the wheel still debating on whether to go home or to go back to the Cullens.

Head for Charlie's where I would be semi-safe or face the music and head straight for what I was sure to be death-row. What to do?