Supernova

Author's note: Just to let you know this chapter is a bit shorter than what I'm used to writing, but after a couple of great reviews I had to spit this out. More goodness to come. Soon. *sigh*

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I thought about screaming, but once I realized that the hand on my shoulder was warm, I knew I was okay. I was surprised when I turned around and looked straight into Sam's eyes. I might have jumped, but I'm not sure. "Sa- Sam!"

He removed his hand. "Bella, calm down, it's just me."

"I know. It's just, I was expecting Jacob, is all."

"Bella, what's wrong?" Shit. I forgot I had been crying.

"Nothing." I hoped he would let it slide.

No such luck. "Now Bella, I know what a bad liar you are from Jacob. Well Jacob's mind anyways, so why don't you try truth this time."

"I don't know where to start." I paused. The truth is, that I didn't know where to start. I can't believe I was about to spill my guts to Sam. "I love Jacob and I want to be with him. He has my heart ya know? It's just that- it shouldn't hurt so bad to love someone."

"You're still not over Cullen?" I shook my head. "Are you sure you made the right choice then?"

"Yes!" I practically screamed. "There is no place I'd rather be than with Jacob, but I can't just kill my other feelings on the drop of a dime, you know?"

"Yes, I know. I know all too well." He dropped his head. "I'm sure you know the story behind Emily. Sometimes when I see Leah, or hear her thoughts for that matter, it brings me to a place of pain. I love Emily with all my heart, but sometimes I wonder what might have happened, what could have happened. It hurts me to think of that, knowing the pain that I caused her."

I sniffled a couple of times and caught my breath. I used my sleeve to wipe away the stray tears that streaked the sides of my face. "That's exactly how I feel, except I made the decision on my own."

"Yes there is that." There was a long pause. "Well, now, you should go up and see him. He's been after you all day. We had to convince him why it would be a bad idea for him to get on his motorcycle and go to that store you work at. He was pacing back and forth wondering why you hadn't shown up yet and that's when I told him I'd go and find you."

I gave him the best smile I could manage in the moment, at the same time I nodded and started for the truck.

The drive to Jacob's only took two minutes, but had I walked it I would have ended there with several bruises to show. I offered Sam a ride, but he said that he had other thing to take care of. I gulped as I raised my hand to knock on the door, but before I could bring my hand down, someone opened the door. Not someone, Jacob. Once I saw his face, it was like everything I was worrying about disappeared. He took half a step foward and scooped me up into a giant bear hug. Or wolf hug. I would have laughed at myself, but couldn't find the air.

"Jacob...can't.... breathe." The second he let me down, I felt the air rush back into my lungs.

"Oh sorry Bells, I missed you so much."

"Jacob I was only gone for a day, calm down."

His voice was more relaxed when he spoke. "How can I calm down. I've been on damned bed rest this whole time. I've been drugged, and now I get to see you, there is no part of me that will be calm." His hand cupped my face. "You have no idea how many times I've visualized this in the past 24 hours."

I was about to ask him what he meant by that when suddenly he showed me by pressing his lips harshly against mine. Every time I had to come up from air, I attempted to speak. "Aren't..." More kissing. "You..." More kissing, his hands slid down to my shoulders. "Supposed..."More kissing. I was wondering if he even noticed that I was attempting to speak. His hands traced their way down my sides since my arms were wrapped around his neck. "To be..." I felt accomplished as I had managed to get out two words. He used this opportunity to slip his tongue into my mouth. Mmmmm....I wanted to lose myself in him, but I think I was attempting to say something. His hands were now on my hips. "Resting?" There I finally got it out. Big mistake. He pulled back.

A huge grin covered his face. "You know, I think you're right. Resting, huh? Doesn't that take place in the bed?" His lips were back on mine, when he placed his hands on my ass and used them to lift me up. Next thing I knew we were moving. Oh dear God, I think we were heading to the bedroom. His bedroom.