Hidden Secrets Found Unknown

Chapter 1: Dreaing Wide Awake...

Midnight... Another day in Forks...

As I sat alone in room. I felt a sudden urge to confront Carlisle. However, for what reason for? Why would I want to confront my so called 'father-figure'? I thought about it the entire night... I wondered... Why was I always thinking about Carlisle... Did I do something terribly wrong? Or did he do something bad to me? I kept that wrapped around my head as I tossed and turned on my black leather couch...

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The next morning...

It was sunny out today. I thoight I would just be hunting with Emmett and Alice. However, I couldn't help but realize that I had to ask my 'father' about something. I felt a bit dizzy, yet I did not feel the urge to faint on my own. Vampires don't faint. Of course not.

"Hey, Edward! Are you coming or not? I want to get to the grizzlies before they begin to move on north." Emmett said as Alice smiled pixie-like through my bedroom door.

"Yeah, come on." Alice ran over towards me and began to drag me towards my bedroom door.

"Ok..." I felt uneasy. I felt not moving. I felt like I wanted to faint, maybe that was my choice. If I did, I would be able to talk to Carlisle alone. About things that have been sshowing up in y head. But all was a blurry state of the unknown. I needed to know. He had to know what had happenend to me when he...turned me.

"Edward?" Alice said in a worried tone. "Are you alrite?" She saw that my eyes were not fixed on excitement. They were fixed on my illness I had.

"Emmett. I think we need to bring Edward to Carlisle. He does not look too good." Alice said as she half carried me through the bedroom and through the halls.

"Why? What's wrong with him?" Emmett said. He stared at me for a few seconds until he realized my condition. "Whoa, dude. You really don't look good..." He carried me in his muscular arms, down the staircase. Alice opened the front door of the house, which led to the set of cars. My Volvo. And Emmett's Jeep. I cuddled into his warm arms. I closed my eyes slightly, however, I stared up to see Emmett's remarkable, handsome face. Then, I went into a deep trance of closed relaxation.

"Alice, get my keys to unlock my Jeep." Emmett said in a gruff tone.

"Already got them." Alice twirled the keys in her hands as she unlocked the Jeep. She opened the back door of the passenger seats.

Emmett got into the car with me still in his arms. Now, at this moment, I couldn't help but realize how my reactions towards him were so...so... non-brotherly. I've been this way for so long. I think I know why Rosalie chose Emmett as her mate. He's so muscular. He's so handsome. When he came to be apart of the Cullens, he became protective of our coven. No matter what stood in his way. I opened eyes to face his dazzling, baffeled eyes. Alice was already driving the Jeep at such a high speed. That trait always ran in the coven.

"Hey, Edward. You alrite?" Emmett said as he cradled me in his muscular arms.

"...Not so great. I feel a bit queasy..." I lied.

"Well, we're almost to the hospital. Carlisle will have a look at you as sooon as possible." Emmet said in calm voice.

Alice was alomost two miles away fro the hospital.

"So...are you guys...um...still going to hunt up near the mountains?" I said in a hoarse tone. Emmett heard my silent question.

"Well, yeah. Right after we hear about your slight illness to the head." Emmett started to let go of me a bit. However, I held on so tightly to his black hoodie. I didn't want his grasp. His oh so strong grasp to leave me.

Emmett stared at me for a second, then kept his grasp on me again. He looked up and saw that we were already at the side of the ER area.

"Ok, guys. we're here." Alice exited the car and headed towards the passenger seat with such ease. Her pixie like traits made me annoyed. However, I loved that about her. She may be the most annoying to me in scenes I don't want her to be in, she can always tell if any of us were in deep peril even something ecstatic will happen. She opened the passenger door.

"Come on." Emmett carried me out of the Jeep and dashed into the ER.

Alice followed after, skipping in flight like a pixie. My head pounded a bit as I was being carried.

Emmett ran past the nurses and doctors and headed towards our 'father's' office. "Hey, Carisle," He entered withiut permission. "Sorry for barging in like this..."

Carlisle looked up to my silent-breathing body against my model-like 'brother'. He scanned my body for a second. "Emmett, lay him on the bed and please wait outside."

Emmett tried to lay me down but I was too engrossed to even let go of him.

"Edward, Carlisle has to check you..." Emmett said in a whisper in my ear. I felt a tingle in my skin. He laid me onto the bed and then gave a soft wave to me and Carlisle as he left the room.

"So, what has been going with you this morning, Edward?" Carlisle said as he searched through his rather messy desk to find his clipboard.

"I've been having such dizziness for the past few days. I can't seem to find the reason why for it. But..." I stopped. I stopped because his eyes were staring right at me. I didn't realize how handsome he was. I couldn't breath, then.

"Edward?" His voice was so low, gruff, yet it was so soft. His hair glistens as the office light shined onto them.

"Um,...well what I was saying was...uh...Well...I actually wanted to... to...." I couldn't speak. I looked down into my lap. I was so nervous and anxious to talk to Carlisle. His handsome face made me blush. I tried to hide it, but, he noticed.

Carlisle shook his head. He sighed heavily.

I looked up and saw that he was serious this time. His eyes didn't show any sign of politeness. But it did show a sign of calmness.

I sighed. "What I was trying to say is that... I'm having dreams... wide awake... I mean... I keep seeing you in my dreams. They felt like they were from the past..." I saw him now aware. He tried not to show that, however, I sensed so uneasy he was now...

"W-Well...Um... That's an interesting...um...reason..." He stood up and walked towards his east window.

He was acting strange...I had to know the reason. he knew somwthing I didn't know about. I had to know the truth. "Carlisle..." I stood from the bed and walked towards the lengthy, muscular man.

He didn't respond. However, he did move west towards the other window, to avoid me.

"Carlisle,...You know something about my dreams don't you?" I walked towards him, slowly. "You know something I don't remember, don't you?"

He touched histemples and closed his eyes. He stood there silent.

I touched his bleached-ivory medical coat. "Tell me the truth, Carlisle. Please... I need to know... Please..." I begged in such a calm, soft voice.

He looked my way then shoved me to the ground. "You have to stop this!" He looked at me with furious eyes.

I stared up to him. I was frightened by his actions... "Carlisle... What did I do?" I scampered away into the corner of his office.

He was more furious now. I didn't know the reason why he was. My mind was blank.

"You were always the one that always seduced me!" Carlisle kicked out the file cabinet that was set in his office and went flying out the window.

I was even more frightened now then ever before. "W-What do you mean I seduced you?" I trembled.

He shook his head in annoyance. He chuckled heavily. " You don't get... don't you?" He was beginning to walk towards me.

I was frightened. I didn't know where else to go... So I headed towards the door.

Carlisle grabbed my wrist as I was about to turn the handle of the door. He grasped with the strength of fury. He stared at me with his furious eyes.

I tried to move about I was pinned down to the floor.

"You do not know how long I've been waiting for this moment to come..." Carlisle said to me in whisper. Close to me ear. I could feel his sharp teeth nibbling against y pale skin.

I shuddered. "Carlisle...Let me go...Don't do this to me...Please?..."

He stopped....I wondered why... He stood up and fixed himself. "Edward... Leave..."

I sat there in shock and in a frightened state... "Carlisle...Please...I need to know...Why do you show up in my dreams?"

"Edward, I told you! Leave!" He was still in his furious state.

I stood up fearfully. I began to turn the door handle. I turned my back for a second, then, I looked back. I think I know why his actions towards me were sexually active. But, I wasn't sure. So I said nothing. I opened the door silently and left. The dorr closing after me. I didn't see Emmett or Alice, so I guess they must have went hunting.

I began to walk out of the ER. However, I sensed someone was coming after me so I stood still.

"Doctor Gerandy, I'm taking 2 weeks off. Haven't been spending too much time with my family." Carlisle said on the phone.

"Sure, Doctor Cullen. Take as much time off as you like." Dr. Gerandy replied.

"Thank you, Doctor. I will see you." Carlisle spoke last and hung up. He gathered all of his belongings.

I began to walk. I felt a sudden urge to stay, but I knew I shouldn't.

Carlisle was already out of the ER area. He saw me. I was right behind me. I felt a huge wave a heat struck my body.

"Edward, get in my car." Carlisle said as he shoved everything into the trunk of his car.

"I don't know...What about the-" I was interrupted by his still furious voice.

"I said get in the fucking car, Edward!" He wasn't changing his state of emotion towards me, so I obeyed. I entered the car without a word.

Carlisle followed after into the driver's seat and slammed the door. He turned on the car, backed out of the parking lot and began driving north.

The speed of the car wasn't unusual. Yet he said nothing to me.

I watched the trees pass us by along the windows of the car.

The silence in the car was rather scary. I feel like I was being kidnapped. But on the other hand, I felt like I was being saved by my night in shining armor.

Either could have been the imaginative state. I let it go. I closed my eyes and dreamt.