Curiosity

Please be gentle on the reviews. This is set before the wedding.

Disclaimer: I own nothing Twilight. I am just borrowing the characters.

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Chapter 1.

Bella is Curious

Bella was feeling extremely out of sorts. Edward was making her wait until after the wedding before they could have sex. He kept himself so in check around her and never let her get more that a few chaste kisses before he backed off and 'got control'. She felt as though he didn't want her. She knew she was being insecure, but he said he loved her and was afraid to hurt her. If she was a vampire already they wouldn't be having this problem. If she were immortal Edward wouldn't be afraid to hurt her. There were times she dearly wished he hadn't sucked the venom from her arm that day in Pheonix.

She needed someone to talk to, but who. She wasn't allowed to go to the Rez to see Jacob. She couldn't talk to Jessica about anything anymore. She loved Alice but knew if she talked to her she would just tell Edward and he would feel bad himself for making Bella insecure. There was no way she could talk to her mom or Charlie about this. Her mom would have all kinds of things to say, and well Charlie was just Charlie. Who to talk to? It seemed she was without anyone to help her figure out what to do.

That weekend she was spending at the Cullen's with Alice while Jasper, Edward, Rosalie, and Esme went hunting. They were going in a large group because they were going farther to hunt. They left Bella in the care of Alice, and Emmett. Dr. Cullen was at a AMA show in Seattle. She knew their weekend would be filled with Alice trying to get her more interested in fashion (Alice's only true passion, besides Jasper), and Emmett's constant teasing just so he could see her blush.

So there she was in Alice's bedroom, letting Alice torment her hair into different hair styles. She endured it only because of her love for her soon to be sister-in-law. She was lost in thought about how she had been feeling and hadn't been listening to a word Alice said.

"Bella. Are you listening?" Alice questioned.

"Sorry, I have been distracted lately. I guess I'm just nervous, you know the wedding and all." Bella tried to cover up what she had really been thinking about.

Alice looked at her with sympathy. "You know Bella, I am known for seeing the way things come out. And things will be fine."

Bella looked at Alice in the mirror and said, "Yes if someone doesn't change their mind before then."

Alice tsked, tsked Bella. And dropped the subject. When Bella got in one of these moods, there was no talking to her.

She went back to fixing Bella's hair. She was trying to find just the right style for the wedding. They continued in silence for a while when Bella asked very softly, "Alice, I know you don't remember anything before this life, but what was your first time like?"

Alice was taken aback, no one had ever asked her, and this wasn't something she wanted to share. It wasn't a happy memory. "Umm, sorry Bell's but I don't want to share that with you. It isn't what most girls remember and something I try to forget. I wasn't used gently my first time. And Edward would probably hunt me himself if I told you. Besides your hair is finished and I hear your stomach growling. Why don't we go get you something to eat?"

Bella just nodded and said, "I'm sorry Alice, I had no idea."

"That's okay. How could you? We don't talk about it, and therefore you couldn't have known. Now about that food for you." and Alice left the room.

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Bella was sitting in the Cullen's living room eating the take out Alice had ordered for her before she went 'shopping' (Bella knew what she asked her had upset her and she felt worse than she had before she asked) and was staring at the t.v. not paying attention to what was on, when Emmett came in. Goodness knows where he had been, but he plopped himself down in the chair across from where Bella was seated.

"Hey Bella. So Alice and I are supposed to keep an eye on you this weekend huh?" Emmett asked.

"Yep, I guess so. I don't know why, I'm perfectly safe at home with Charlie, but you know Edward. Over-protective all the time." She said kind of exasperated. "I just don't see why he thinks he has to treat me like I'll break all the time."

"Yeah, I can see where that could become a bit annoying." Emmett said sympathically. "It will definately make for an interesting honeymoon. How can you enjoy it, if he acts as though he will break you all the time?"

Bella just stared at him. Had he been reading her mind. No, that was impossible. Edward was the mind reader of the family, and even he couldn't read Bella's thoughts. Then she thought maybe she could talk to someone. Emmett might be a clown, but he had his moments where he seemed sincere.

"Emmett, do you mind if I ask you a personal question?" Bella asked shyly.

Emmett just grinned, he didn't embaress easily and he felt the conversation was sure to bring about a blush from Bella, and he so loved to see her blush. "Sure, I'll answer any question you throw at me, but be forewarned you might not like the answer."

Bella swallowed loudly. Sat still thinking how to ask what she had started to. She figured this was her only chance to get someone's thoughts on what she had been thinking, so she just spit out the first words that came to her. "Have you been sexually intimate with a human, you know, since you changed?"

Emmett got a serious look on his face, at first Bella thought he meant to go back on his word and not answer her then he spoke up and said, "Yes, it was a very long time ago. But yes I have."

Bella waited for him to continue but when he didn't she had to ask, "Well what was it like. I mean did you hurt her? Did you kill her? Could you keep control enough to be intimate with her?" The questions all just flowed out at once and she clamped a hand over her mouth to keep herself from asking more.

Emmett seemed to contemplate his answers. And after a few moments of silence, he finally answered. "Well, like I said it was a long time ago, so the memories are a little fuzzy, but no I didn't kill her. She had a few bruises when we finished, and I remember how proud of myself I was. You know, that I could keep control in that emotional state. You know me being the big man that I am. But she was fine other than the trace bruise here or there. Why are you asking?"

"Well it's just that like you said its annoying for Edward to treat me like I'm breakable all the time. And I'm afraid I'm going to have a horrible honeymoon if he can't get past that." Bella replied.

Emmett looked away and thought to himself for a moment and when he returned his gaze to Bella, she sucked in a breath. He was looking at her with pure desire and lust. She knew that look, she had seen it before on others faces. But what made it worse was she knew she was looking at him the same way.
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Ok. Let me know what you think about the first chapter. Will get to the Rated M. I promise, had to lead up to it, you know. And I have no idea where its going. It just comes out and I type it. Hope you are enjoying so far.

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