Broken

Chapter 13. Now you find out just what happened to Bella.

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My head pounded with all this stimulation. Trying to focus on what to say, or how to act. I felt an odd distance to Edward. Though he still held his comforting topaz eyes that used to sooth me, they only made me want to shrink away. I watched intently as he lifted his hand to my face, without being able to control myself I flinched away.

"I'm sorry. I should have realized" Edward said sounding distraught. "Alice, will you please go get Carlisle"

She bounced out of the room, leaving only Edward and I in the room together alone. I felt unease wash over me. Fear of what might happen if I was left alone with anyone.

"I'm sorry" I finally spoke, breaking down into tears.

"There is no reason to be sorry Bella. You can't help it." Edward said softly.

"I almost died didn't I?" I said no sure I wanted an answer, though I already knew it.

"Yes. Aiden almost drained you completely"

I frantically started looking at myself as best I could. There was no marble skin, no thrist for blood. There was only broken bones, cuts, and bruises lining where my sparkling skin should be.

"You didn't change me?" I said horrified.

"No. Carlisle thought he could save you without resorting to that" Edward said, concern written on his face.

"No. No! I wanted to be a vampire! I don't want to be like this anymore!" I shouted, my tears of anguish turning to tears of anger.

"Like what Bella?" he asked keeping his calm

"A fucking human! I'm tired of being so god damn fragile Edward!"

Edward was speechless, I had never cursed in front of him much less at him.

"I only thought-"

"You only thought of what you want. Not what I want. Not what's best for me." I said coldly. I attempted to roll over so I didn't have to look at him but my hips screamed in pain when I moved slightly.

I looked up hearing a knock at the door. Carlisle strode in first eying Edward, who walked out of the room without another word.

"I'm sorry, Carlisle." I whispered.

"You know you wouldn't be alive if it weren't for him" Carlisle said simply before pulling my blankets
back.

"I wouldn't be here if it weren't for him" I muttered. I had to hold in a gasp after I said it. Had I really
blamed Edward? He loved me. He wanted the best for me, didn't he?

"I'll let you discuss that with Edward" He said looking over my bruises. I looked down at my body now that I could see it. I wanted to throw up. How could my body have sustained so much trama
and still function normally.

"We're going to have to put you through physical therapy once you've healed more. As far as anyone knows you and Angela snuck out of your house to go see Edward and Ben. When you got to Ben's house someone broke in. Ben and his parents were both killed. You and Edward barely escaped with your lives" He said looking up at me.

"And Angela?" I muttered. There was a long pause and Edward reappeared by my side. Why did he have to move so damn fast? Carlisle nodded and left the room. Leaving Edward to stare intently at me. I groaned not wanting an answer to my question.

"I'm guessing he wants you to tell me about Angela?" I frowned and tears forming in my eyes. He nodded and took my hand.

"When Aiden had you I couldn't get to you. James was making it as impossible to save you as possible. Angela attacked him as best a human can attack a vampire. He wasn't hurt, and instead of finishing you completely he turned on her. It bought me enough time to dispose of James and to save you." Edwars swallowed hard, looking into my eyes. I was crying again.

Who had saved Angela? Who had looked out for her? Why had no one given their life to protect her? All the questions swirling in my head, though there was no answer. No one had been there for Angela, and now she was gone.

He could have saved her. Before turning to me. She didn't deserve this. She should be alive now. Resting in a hospital bed, thankful to be alive. Confused at what had happened. Not somewhere in the ground, rotting for eternity.

She didn't deserve this.

"When can I go see her?" I asked, my voice shaky with emotion.

"I've talked to Carlisle. The funeral is tomorrow. You'll have to be in a wheelchair, but he said you should be able to go."

"Oh." I wasn't sure of myself. "I don't know if I can do that."

The voice that had spoken didn't seem like mine. It was selfish, and unsure.

"Well if you can't everyone will understand. You've been through alot in the past few months Bella. No one will judge you."

"Do you think I can?" I said looking up into his eyes, questioning him.

"I think you're alot stronger than you give yourself credit for." He said standing up from the bedside chair. He placed a kiss on my forehead before leaving the room.

Minutes later Carlisle reappeared, looking over my IV and adding something. The room started to spin and twirl. I felt sick at first, then my body became heavy and it was hard to move.
The bed underneath me started to melt and I felt my eye lids closing without my consent. I fell asleep to the sound of a beep heart monitor and my own sobbing.

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Chapter 13 is complete! I'll tell you guys now. There are only 2-3 more chapters to the story. I love everyone who's read this story. It's been increasingly difficult to write.
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