Life After Edward

Bella POV

Alice sat next to me as I watched TV. I tried not to think about what I was drinking. It makes sense that this would be what the baby wants. After all, that’s what its daddy drinks. Edward. Alice saw us get back together. He claims that he has always loved me. I still love him. I want us to make this family work, together. Would he still turn me?

He may not have a choice on that. I might have to be turned because of this. No one had said anything, but I can tell we’re all thinking it. It will probably be for the best. I can’t handle the baby while it’s inside me; I doubt I can handle it when it’s outside. If it turns to be more like it’s father then me, I won’t be able to do it, at least while I’m human.

I was about to ask Alice about my thoughts when Emmett, Jasper and Edward entered the house. I stared at Edward. He walked over to me.

“Bella, can we please talk?” He asked staring into my eyes.

“If you can take me for a walk,” I said, I needed to stretch my legs.

“Bella, I don’t think…” Alice started, but I interrupted.

“I feel much better, I need to get up and walk. If something happens, Edward can just run me back inside.”

“Fine,” Alice said, giving in to me.

Edward helped me up; I grabbed his hand and used his arm for support.

We walked in silence for a little while. Neither of us were sure where to start.

“Bella, I’m sorry,” Edward said, breaking the silence.

“I know.”

“I shouldn’t have left. I really do love you. I never stopped loving you.”

“I love you too.” We sat on a rock, which was shaped perfectly for us to sit on.

“I want to be with you through this, I want to be a…a father,” It seemed a little hard for him to say, probably because it was something he never thought possible.

“I want to be with you, I just don’t want to get hurt again. I can’t lose you again.”

“I will never you leave”

“You won’t have an excuse this time. The reason you left is no longer a question of ‘if?’ but more like ‘when?’ “I knew I said it a little confusing and by the look on his face it was more then a little.

“Bella, I don’t understand.”

“You left, because you knew if we stayed together I would probably become like you, but now it’s a guarantee I will have to be turned.”

“What?!?! Why?”

“There’s a chance I won’t make it through the birth and if I can make it through the birth, do you think I can take care of a half vampire child while still human?”

“I would help, plus how do you know it won’t be more like you?” Edward asked.

“Edward, it already prefers blood. Chances are looking better for it to be like you.” I reasoned.

“But…” I interrupted him.

“Are you really that against having me around for eternity?” I asked him.

“Of course I want you around, but…your right, I’ll have to turn you.” Edward gave in to me. Wait! Edward just gave in to me!!!!

“You will do it?” I asked him.

“That’s what you want, right?”

“Yes!”

“On one condition, marry me first?” I stared at him, did he just propose?

“What if you have to turn me directly after the birth? I’m not getting married while I’m fat.”

“If you have to be turned directly after the birth, then we get married as soon as the newborn stuff wears off, but if we don’t have to turn you right away, then we get married and then I’ll turn you.”

I leaned over and kissed him. He kissed me back gently.

“Can I take that as a yes?” He asked smiling at me.

I thought about it for a minute. How did I forgive him so easily? He left me. He told me he didn’t love me. He’s only saying this because it’s the responsible thing to do for the baby. How could I believe any of this? I can’t do this.

“Bella?” Edward asked, probably because I had been silent for a couple of minutes. I stood up and walked toward the house. Edward was beside me in a second.

“I’m not marrying you. I realize you’re just trying to do what YOU think the right thing is, like always. Marrying me just because I’m pregnant isn’t the right thing.” I left him standing in the middle of the yard and walked inside where Alice was waiting for me. I laid on the couch and began to cry into a pillow.