Life After Edward

Bella’s POV

“Get out of here, Edward,” Carlisle said to Edward. Edward looked at me and I pushed harder against Emmett and Jasper. Edward made the smart choice to leave.

Jasper had finally succeeded in calming me. Suddenly the realization of what I did hit me. I attacked Edward! I tried to kill him! Carlisle went to take a step toward me, but Esme put a hand on his shoulder to caution him. I was a threat. I was being the crazed newborn I had feared becoming.

“I’m sorry,” was all I could say. My voice shocked me. It didn’t sound like me. I had stopped fighting and Jasper and Emmett loosened their grips on me.

Carlisle looked shocked at my words. “It’s okay Bella. Are you in control now?”

“Yes. I was just angry with him,” I tried to rationalize, but it was no use. How could I have done that to him?

“It’s okay. Now, I’m sure you’re thirsty. Are you ready to go on a hunt?” Carlisle asked. I now realized the burning in my throat, but it could wait. I had to talk to Edward. Then another thought came to my head.

“That can wait. Where’s my baby?’ I asked Carlisle. Everyone looked confused by what I said. “What is it? What happen?” I started to freak.

“Calm down, Bella. Your daughter is fine.” Carlisle said in a soothing voice. “We’re all just confused because you’re able the think of something other than your thirst.”

“Is that bad?” I asked, of course, I couldn’t do the human thing, now I can’t do the vampire thing.

“It’s not bad at all. It’s very good. It's just different for a newborn.” Jasper explained, as he let go of me completely.

“Okay, well can I see my baby?” I asked and Esme was the one to answer.

“Bella, it’s probably best if you hunt first. Your baby has a heartbeat, and you don’t want risk anything tempting you. Right?”

“Alright, but can I talk to Edward before I leave?” I asked hopefully. Edward came in the room instantly.

I looked into his eyes. There was so much hurt in them. Hurt that I caused. I walked slowly towards him, Jasper and Emmett at either side of me.

“I’m so sorry Edward,” I said still staring in his eyes.

“It’s okay,” He said back to me. I moved quicker then I intended and apparently Jasper and Emmett weren’t ready for it since they didn’t stop me. I wrapped my arms around Edward. I felt his arms wrap around me. I looked up at him.

“Take me hunting?” I asked simply.

“Let’s go.” He said, as he gave me that crooked smile I loved so much.

No one trusted me alone with Edward. I don’t blame them. I don’t trust me alone with Edward. Jasper and Alice came with us. No one said anything but it was obvious why. Jasper could keep me calm and Alice would know if I was going to attack anything other then my prey.