One big mistake

Jake's strong arms carried me to the house and some how managed to get the door open. We were in the stuffy little living room before I knew it, still kissing like our lips were glued together. He set my feet down to the floor and I swayed still giggling. I looked up at him, he looked down and said seriously "Are you sure?"

"Yes" I whispered.

Quickly he tore at my shirt popping three of the buttons off has his hands stripped it off my shoulders. I struggled to get the rest unbuttoned before any more damage could be done. his kiss was furious his mouth pressed harder than ever against mine. I could taste the rum. I closed my eyes. I dont know what I was doing but I could feel his hands all over my body. His hands left trails of heat on my chest, my face, the small of my back.

When I opened my eyes again Jacob was standing in front of me, he had taken off his pants and his boxers and he was beautiful. My breathe caught in my throat. I realized as if coming out of a daze that I was in nothing but my bra and panties his hands were running up my inner thigh. I shivered. The touch was so soft it felt like a feather from his iron hands.

I reached up and kissed him again. He wrapped his arms around me and picked me up again off the floor, carried me to his room leaving a pile of disregaurded cloths on the floor in the living room. He laid me down on his bed. For a flicker of a second I stopped. This is not what I wanted. I wanted Edward. This is wrong. This is Jacob. But it felt so good. I closed my eyes. His hands were not the hands I wanted to feel moving slowly up the inside of my thigh. They were to hot. I wanted ice. The kiss that was so passionatly exploring my mouth was to heated, it was supposed to be cooler. But I couldnt make myself stop. I imagined Edward kissing me as I felt Jacob reclaim my mouth again. My body was giving myself away. I could feel myself grow hotter, wetter. This was going to happen. I couldnt stop it now, and I didnt want to.

Jacob's and hesitated, then with a quick motion, pulled my panties down. I gasped and my hips lifted his hot hand touched my center. to hot. I closed my eyes again and pictured Edward's face. I was about to loose him, the pain flashed against the pleasure. There were no thoughts then as Jacob pushed his fingers into my body his thumb rubbed gently against my clit. I let out a moan of both pleasure and pain. OH GOD the feeling was unbelievable his fingers pushed and pulled faster and I could feel his heavey breathe against my neck as he kissed down my throat.

I felt his hands undo my bra clasp and he pulled it off my shoulders. I laid there, bare to him, completely exposed and I wasnt scared. I wanted Edward. Again came the thought this is wrong, so wrong. but my body wasnt giving in. Jacob's hot hand gently touched the dark pink of my left nipple and I moaned. He pulled his fingers out of me and I felt the moisture on them as he ran his hand back up my side. then his mouth claimed one of my breast and I almost screamed out loud. My need was growing so strong I lifted my hips again. Jake was laying on his side next to me when I lifted my hips again he moved his body on top and I could feel his weight against my stomache, my chest, my thighs, he covered me like a blanket and the heat was so strong it was overwhelming. My eyes still closed I felt him stop. I looked up at his face. He was worried, he kissed me softly and said "Bella, this is your first time?"

"yes" I whispered, I couldnt get my voice to work right.

"This is going to hurt, are you sure you want to go thru with this?"

"Dont stop me Jacob. I dont want to think. I dont want to feel anything but what is happening right now." who is talking I wondered. In my head I was screaming NO! I dont want to do this! I want Edward. This is wrong you are a brother to me. But I looked into his eyes as he lifted his body into position and said nothing. He hesitated, took a deep breathe and plunged hiself into my core. The pain shot thru me like a knife. It was hot quick and over, then there was nothing left but Jacob. Jacob filling me. moving his hands up the arm I had flung over my head to hold my hand. Jacob kissing my neck and rocking me with his force. He moved deeper into me and I felt the blood rush to my face.

His heat filled me. Harder and harder he pushed and pulled his heat rising and breaking over my body. I could feel a knott in my stomache begining to loosen when with a thrust he burried hiself as deep as he could into my body. I did scream then. the feeling was so undiscribable. wave after wave of electricity hit my core and lights flashed before my closed eyes. I could feel him, but I couldnt see him. all I could see was Edward. I want this to be him so badly that tears weld up in my eyes. Jacob moved until his body was trembling and with another thrust I felt his body release. He shiverd and kissed my lips again. I felt him lift off me and I looked up. He had a pained look on his face as he saw my tears.

"Did I hurt you?" He whispered

"No Jake, that was, well, I dont know how to say it." I closed my eyes again. My tears were from pain, but not from his love making.