Broken

And the fun begins. Here comes all the smutty angst you all love.
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The ride home from the Cullen's was silent and awkward, making me even happier we didn't live that far from one another. I knew when we got home Alice would be much perkier.

"I thought you said Charlie would be gone for another week?" She said breaking our silence as we rounded the corner to my house.

"Yeah, he's in Boise I think."

"Well, he might suppose to be in Boise, but he's home" She said pointing to the cruiser in the driveway.

"That's weird. I wonder why" I said dismissively pulling up to the house.

"Well I'm sure we'll find out in a minute" she said as we walked toward the house. Charlie opened the front door waiting on us, encouraging us to move fast.

"Why are you home so early dad?" I asked once inside, dropping my bag by the door.

"Well I got a call from Billy." He said walking into the living room, Alice and I followed.

"Really? What'd he want?"

"Well there have been some attacks around the reservation." my stomach churned knowing who'd caused the attacks.

"Is everyone ok? Billy's alright right?"

"He's pretty banged up." Charlie's eyes followed me till he knew I was sitting down "Bella, Jacob was hurt very badly. Him, Paul, and Embry."

"Well they'll be ok, won't they?" I started to feel sicker by the moment knowing where this conversation was going.

"Paul and Embry will be fine. But Jacob is gone." He paused not sure if to go on, reading my face.

"He passed away this morning"

"No." I said stunned. Tears started pouring from my eyes unwillingly. I wanted to scream but I couldn't get enough breath to even whisper.

I didn't understand it. I couldn't understand what was happening. My mind spinning as I tried to grasp his words.

"I'm so sorry Bella. I know you two were very close" Charlies underwater voice echoed in my ears. I could taste something in my mouth. It was horrible. I hadn't noticed when I started throw up nor did I care. My mind was completely and souly focused on the fact Jacob was gone.
Forever.

"But. I talked to him yesterday. It's not possible" I said through broken sobs. I felt Alice wrap her cold arms around me in attempt to comfort me. "We were going to Port Angeles tomorrow."

"shh. It'll be okay Bella. It'll be okay" Alice whispered in my ear. She got a napkin off the table and wiped off my mouth now that the vomiting had quieted to just dry heaving. "Charlie, I think it'd be best if I took her to her room now."

"I understand." He said sounding worried and rejected. "I'll go to the store and get her some Sprite and cracks to help with her stomach."

Alice lifted me off the couch and carried me upstairs.

"Is she ok?" I heard a familiar voice ask as the door shut.

"No. I'm not fucking ok! My bestfriend is dead! I could have warned him! I could let him know to be on the look out, but you didn't tell anyone!" I screamed at Edward with as much strength as I could. I felt him hugging me, holding me, and kissing me as if he was trying to say sorry. "Just get off me and go away."

I turned over on the bed in time to see his broken expression. I knew I had hurt him, but he could have told me about James. Then I could have warned him and he'd still be alive.
I watched without care as he jumped out of the window hearing the dull thud of his feet hitting the ground.

"You know you don't mean that Bella." Alice said laying down next to me, stroking my hair "You know we were only protecting you."

"I know that my bestfriend is dead. The only person who was there for me when my entire world fell apart. The only person to even attempted to keep my sane. Who was protecting him! Why couldn't you have at least told him without telling me" I sobbed. I hated her for being right. I didn't blame Edward, he was only trying to help.

"We couldn't have known it would happen. Now we just have to deal with the reality of it"

"They'll blame me you know. The wolves" my voice quivered thinking of the things they would say. I felt even more uneasy as silence fell upon us. It started to pull at me, finally sucking me into a dark dreamless sleep.

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This will probably be the 2nd most depressing chapter of the story >.< But then again this is meant to be a very angsty story so I guess it's appropriate.
Gaps of Misery: Edward won't be a cock block forever lol I promise. =]