Broken

Chapter 5. Hope you all like it so far. And I do still need a beta.
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"Bella you have to come out of your room sometime" Someone said behind me. I felt the comforting chilled I'd missed the passed 2 weeks pressing against my back.

"I can't" I whispered back. "Not now."

"We've all missed you. Charlie is worried sick. And I think I may go mad if I spend another day without you."

"You know, I never told him we were married." I said turning to face him now. A tear slipped down my cheeks, he caught it with his finger wiping it away.

"You didn't want to hurt him. Please stop blaming yourself. It wasn't James. It's not your fault."

"I still miss him. I just can't imagen not seeing him anymore." my tears falling more freely now."I can still hear his voice all around me. When I blink or sleep I see his face. When I look around I can see him in places where he's been"

"It's because you loved him." I felt shame at Edward's words. "He was your brother, maybe not by blood but he was still your brother"

I felt him place a small kiss on my forehead.

"Now. It's almost noon. Why don't you go downstairs and have some breakfast. If not for you, for Charlie. I'll give you 15 minutes or I'll come up here and drag you out."

"No."

"You may hate me now Bella. But you'll thank me later." Then he disappeared. I let out a frustrated sigh and sat up. I didn't understand how he could do something like this to me. I didn't want to and he was making me. And he was right. I did hate him for it. I hated him for being right.

I went to the bathroom and brushed my hair. I could heard Edward and Charlie talking downstairs.

"She still hasn't come out yet." charlie's voice echoed up the stairs.

"You think she will today?"

"I doubt it."He sighed loudly. "I just don't know what I'm going to do. I know she's hurt, but this is unhealthy. I've never seen her like this. Not even when." He stopped

I knew what he meant. 'not even when you left' is what he meant. Hearing them talk made me sick to my stomach. Thinking of what I'd put Charlie through these passed 2 weeks. What he must have been thinking. My reclusing to my room without speaking to anyone for 2 weeks was not unlike Edward leaving me. If nothing else it was worse.

"Morning Charlie. Morning Edward" I said to both of them, appearing at the foot of the stairs.

"Good morning Bells!" Charlie said giving me a big hug. I knew he'd missed me more than words since he was not a hugging type of person. "Edward and I were just talking about you. He's been here everyday, you know"

'every day?' I thought guilt of a different kind creeping over me. I knew I was being selfish. But wasn't that ok after these kinds of things happened?

"We've missed you so much Bella" Edward said kissing my cheek.

"I'm sorry."

It didn't cut it, I knew that. But it's all I could say.

"Breakfast?" Charlie asked presenting me with some under cooked eggs and burned bacon.. My stomach churned out of hungry and hesitation.

"Sure." I must have made a funny face cause Charlie laughed rather loudly.

"There's my Bella!" He smiled and turned back to the kitchen with the plate. "I made back up toast just in case."

"Have you been doing this every morning?" I said softly, guilty again.

"Only the past few days. Edward started it" Charlie smiled

"Did he now?" I turned raising one eyesbrows. If he wasn't made of garnite I would have slugged him, but I'd broken my hand one time too many. One time to many..... I started to cry thinking of
the time Jacob had kissed me.

"What's wrong Bella?!" Edward said instantly at my side.

"I can't do this Edward." I said softly, collapsing into his arms. "Everything reminds me of him. Everything."

"You can do this. You have to do this. I'm not letting you not do this." He said firmly.

"This isn't your desicion." I said defiantly pulling away from him.

"Fine, go back to your room. Be miserable. Hate the world. Hate yourself. Torture those who love you. And most importantly be selfish! You ovbiously don't give a damn about the rest of us! Cause if you did you'd actualy come down from your room, pull yourself together, and let us help you!" Edward said loosing his temper for one of the first times. Before I could get a world in he began again, lowering his voice again.

"Bella, I can not protect you like this. When you're in your room I have no idea what's going on. It's not like you let me in anymore."

"Then don't bother. I don't need your protection or your help" I said walking back up the stairs, leaving Charlie and Edward downstairs alone.

"I'm sorry, Charlie." I heard him say as I disappeared up the stairs. "I didn't mean to upset her, I just get so frustrated sometimes"

"I understand. Have you met her mother?" I shut my drown drowning out the sound of his laughter.
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There is chapter 5. It took me FOREVER to write haha. Hope you all liked it. I know it's short.
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