One big mistake

Bella"S POV





I was sitting on the couch still looking in hie eyes. His beautiful golden eyes that at the moment were full or rage. I was scared. For the first time since Edward and I had started this twisted romance, I was scare of him. I had betrayed him, hurt him more than I had ever dreamed I could.

There he was, perfect, and I was a noting. I deserved to die.

I couldnt speak.

His hands on mine burned even though they were icy. My heart was racing. I could feel it pounding in my throat. Real fear.

He let out a low growl, and everything went black, I fainted.



"Bella, open your eyes." His voice was soft and hard at the same time, concrete velvet.

I didnt open my eyes, I felt the tears build up in them and let the first of another hundred slide down my cheek.

"Bella, why did you faint just then? Did you think I would hurt you? You really dont know me at all do you? You think I could harm a hair on your head?" Ice again.

"Edward" I whispered not trusting myself to speak any louder. I knew he would hear me anyway.

"Edward, I have no words. nothing I say will take back what a disscusting person I am. Sorry seems so hollow. I will never forgive myself and I dont expect you to forgive me. I dont deser..."

He stopped me. Placing one cool finger on my lips. I jumped at the contact. My eyes were still closed and I never thought he would touch me again.

My eyes flew open. I looked for a moment into his startling eyes and felt another wave of remorse hit me.

"Bella, I want to know everything."

This request left me breathless.

"Why?" I asked with a whimper.

"Because, Bella, There are a few things I still dont understand. Do you love Jacob Black?"

"NO" I said with full volume now. Surprised at how loud it came out.

"Then why did you make love to him?

"I didnt. Edward, we had sex. Its all confusing, I kept telling myself to stop but I couldnt. I drank so much rum and he told me to do whatever I wanted, that I could do whatever I wanted when I was with him. I was picturing you in my head and I dont know, I just kindof woke up and I was kissing him."

I put my face back in my hands. muttering into them.

"I dont know I wasnt thinking, I was thinking, I wanted it to be you. I wished it was you. But I couldnt make myself stop." I was hyperventilating again.

"I wanted you." I said in barely a whisper between gasps.

I sat very still while he waited for me to catch my breath. After I was breathing normal again. He got to his feet and stood in front of me.



"You wanted it to be me?" He said bitter and confused. "You went down to where I asked you not to go, got drunk and had sex with that DOG because you wanted ME?



I wanted to scream, cry, beg, vomit, run, die.

I just sat there and looked at him.



His expression was unreadable. Then he said the words I never thought I would hear from him.

He took a deep breath. "Come here Bella." His hand was reaching out to help me up from my seat. I looked at him confused and took his hand. He gently lifted me up to face him.

In a swift movement that took my breath away he kissed me. His kiss was forceful almost angry. His lips pressed hard on mine forcing mine open. His cool tounge was in my mouth and he had his hand in my hair moving my face tight against his. He wasnt being gentle.

I broke away unwillingly gasping. My blood had begun to boil.

"Edward, wha.."

His eyes burned with something I didnt expect to see. Anger and passion.

"You wanted me. Here I am. I am going to take you. I am going to show what making love it Bella. And you will not say another word do you understand?"

He was growling low in his throat.

My eyes wide I nodded.

His mouth reclaimed mine and I was kissing him back furiously. I raised my hands to his shoulders but he grabbed them and put them back to my side. It felt like he didnt want me to touch him. I burned again with conflicting emotions. He was mad but he was kissing me like the world was comming to an end.

I still had tears in my eyes. He licked them away.

"No more of those either." His voice was rough now. Iron wrapped in rose petals.

I sucked in a breath and nodded again.

There was a ripping sound and my shirt was on the floor in three pieces. I stood there in front of him in my bra, stunned by his forcefulness. Edward was always careful, always gentle.

But not now.

Now he grabbed me up by my waist and threw me over his shoulder. We were at the top of the stairs before I knew it and he threw me down on my bed. I landed ungracefully and barley had time to raise myself onto my elbows when his body was pressed against me.

His mouth again on mine was rough, kissing deeply. I felt his hands on my breast. another ripping sound and my bra was gone. He threw it away. It landed on the floor where my pants and panties followed quickly there after. I was laying on the bed naked. I had never been naked for him. HE had never let himself look at my body like this because he was worried of hurting me. It didnt seem like he was worried anymore about hurting me, to badly anyway. My hands were pulled over my head and he kept them there with one hand while his other traveled down the side of my body to my hips. I felt my body responding to his touch and knew he could smell my wetness, my sent.

He growled into my ear. "I am going to touch you now. Then, I am going to kiss you. Do you understand?"

"yes" I said breathlessly

His hand touched gently at first softly with his fingertips finding the little spot moving into circles before he plunged two fingers into me hard.

I gasped.

His touch was what I had craved. His touch was burning ice. It left me smoldering in the snow. I tried to lift my head but his mouth came down on mine again with reckless force. His hand moved slowly at first then faster and as his fingers explored my core his thumb rubbed the secret spot. My body began to tingle. I felt him remove his fingers and I watched him place them in his mouth and close his eyes. He let out another low growl. The hand that had kept mine above my head pulled them down to my sides. I couldnt touch him. He kept my hands bound in his grip.

He lowered his face to my hips kissing all the way down my neck to my chest pausing only for a moment to pull one of my nipples in his mouth and suck it hard. His tounge traced a circle around it before he continued to travel down. I felt his cool breathe on the inside of my thigh and I let out a moan of longing. I lifted my hips just a fraction of an inch expectantly. His tounge was hard, cold marble, as it licked softly up the side of my thigh and then plunged into my heated center roughly. In and out, he flicked his tounge, sucking gently on the spot his thumb had left neglected. I felt the tingle start again and a knot, an iron band around my chest was loosening. I was trashing around underneath him, moaning, screaming his name, trying to lift myself so that I could see his eyes, but he kept me firmly in my place with his grip.

He stopped again.

"Bella, I want you. I have wanted you from the first day. But, only if you are absolutley sure that I am who you want. Me, Bella, Me and no other. No one else will ever touch you. Your body will be mine from this moment on. Swear to me that your body will belong to me for all time. And I will make love to you." His voice was gruff

He ment it. He had forgiven me for my lack of sanity. He loved me, and he wanted me as badly as I wanted him. I was the weak one, the one who had given into the temptation of another. I understood then. Edward had been tempted. He knew how hard it was to say no. HE knew I was weak. Only Human as he kept telling. He was forgiving me.

My "Yes" was almost pleading. "You are all I have ever wanted." I breathed "You. Only You. Forever more."

He let my wrists go and I wrapped my arms around his shoulders. My hands exploring his back, chest, running over his body quickly to catch up with everything they had missed while bound. He lifted up and tore off his pants. He was there, God like in his perfection He leaned down and the kiss was gentle, soft and as pleading as the one I returned.

"Bella, I am going to take you now. This is what making love is."

Everything about the way he touched me changed. his hands that were so rough before became feathers. His kisses, so forceful before became pleading.

He reached down and guided his thickened cock int my body with a swift and gentle thrust.

The blood rushed to my face and I let out a scream of pleasure that startled me. I looked into his eyes. They were not burning any more. They were ful of passion, lust, and love. He moved slowly at first, then faster and harder. we rocked together in passion until the iron band that was wrapped around my chest exploded. The wave of pleasure that escaped had my body bucking and writhing under his weight. He continued to move at a steady pace, keeping the wave from receading, until he to was trembling. I felt his body release.

We lay there wrapped together. I lifted his hand in mine, our fingers twisted around each others.

"Edward, I love you."

"Bella, I love you too, enough to understand, and strong enough to forgive."

I laid my head down on his chest listening to his breathing

"Now there is only one thing left to take care of." He said gruffly.

"Whats that." I asked almost fearful again.

"Jacob Black is pulling into the driveway right now." His tone was undiscribable.